I want to tell a story about a lady who had a wonderful life, a life filled with all kinds of love and laughter, healthy children, and good times living on the gorgeous island of Maui. What a glorious dream I created for myself!
One day the dream crashed into a series of indescribable nightmares. I had a massive stroke on all sides of my body, leaving me comatose for at least a couple of weeks. During that time, some of my dreams consisted of being tossed into a large vat of human feces. I believed that I had died. When I awakened from the coma, I found myself paralyzed, blind, and in indescribable pain. My life resembled a horror film.
I keep attempting to awaken from the horror of this nightmare, but I don't seem to have the capacity to let it go. I desperately want to, but the more I try the more I realize that in fact this is not a dream, this is real life--that is, my real life.
I am so tired of the pain, so tired from the endless medications I have to take. I'm so tired of not being able to see my wonderful son and gorgeous daughter, and at times it brings me to tears in a single moment. The tears don't seem to go away, they just continue to haunt me. At times I have frightening flashbacks of my nightmares.
To be continued...
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